Monday, April 13, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
today was like almost the worst day ofmy life larhsss.
:(
started the day waking up at 530
went to school early 'cos sis neeeded to be in early for either SPA [ science practical assessment ] or prefects.
duhno.
;D
then reached school bout 650?
yup
even though sch starts at 8
>< time flies
then had english
erh
uhh
it was quite dry
then had recess.
then had principal's assembly
seriously lah.
i'm getting like super bored during PA.
its like
keep asking us questions
when we just want to know what is next
but wad to do.
then
had
math
lolz.
i find graphs like super fun lah
esp when plotting the graph and drawing the line
;D
IT'S LIKE KINDERGARTEN ALL OVER AGAIN!
;D
then had moosic
haiz
again, DRY
then the play was to start at 2
so
from 110 to 2 celene and i were like doing the props
like the debris[ crushed paper ] , the signs [ foolscap paper], and basically trying to calm everybody who was just freaked about the one line they had to say?-.-
but nvm
everybody's liddat.
but i'm like sort of the person who ask them to do stuff
so anything that went wrong, my fault
but it was one of the rare times where it was actually worthit.
'cos like it was really good play.
;D thanks to positive comments n suggestions from celene, yijing, ollie, russell[sometimes], gerald ;D sometimes michael too
---------------------ISLAND OF THE BEASTS adapted from'lordoftheflies'---------------
self destruction in 10.....9.....8.....7.....6...5.4.3.2.1 BOOM!
;D
hah.
it was great
and like sooper funneh
esp like the part where russell'striped'
well he didn't really
but
at least he had the decency to wear a singlet inside-.-
like
erh
hello, he wanted to strip to his underwear, literallyh.
but we made him strip to his singlet and school shorts
so
it was juts taking of the jacket and tshirt
if not russell wldn't 'do the play.
:)
i mean, willingly
then
they played ' dontcha' aft i said ' ralph started to strip to his underwear'
SUPER FUNNY CAN>
once the music started
he just turned round and started lolz.
lucky it wasn't that short.
HAHa.
it was funny lah
-.-
little joke liddat tch also canot take
aft that he also said sth that really like ' drew the line? ' but shan't say it here ltr kenna scolding-.-
then
kenna scolding lohs
but
don't care
russell was like ' no regrets, it was fun anyway'
;)
so
i also no regrets lohs
in the end also i never kenna[yet].
it was worthit
so sec 2s!
IN THE END, IT WAS ALL WORTHIT 'COS IT ROCKED.and it did
big time.
even though we didn't complete the entire play
it was good
then
aft that
went bacfk to class for IFD[intl friendshipday] practice
i was alr quite pissed then apparently i didn't look pissed enough
so when benny and dario came back from macs [ they weren't at the play ]
he thought i was normal
Then he pissed me off
and then i got super angry
the tension in the entire class was like super high.
i felt like slapping sth
but
nvm
><
i have to learn to dispose of anger
i didn't talk to him aft that
'cos i needed cooling down
at the end of the day
i don't blame him.i blame me
'cos i didn't get myself sth during lunch, so i was hungry
and i shldn't have flared up at them.
so , sorry benny
i'll get over it
;) hope u will too
went home
and decided to get over it
came home at 530
slept until like erh 8
><
-paiseh-
but was really tired.
then practiced piano
.<
really excited[sort of]
i just really find some ppl really erh you know
'cos
they just can't take jokes and they just think everything is so perfect, so steorotype.
seriously
it just annoys me that they treat us like really small kids when its not like as if we're that young
we're teenagers.
you've been where we've been
you've either been an outcast, emo or a popular.
yeah, i think i iknow which one u were.
Friday, April 3, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
3.4.09. time : 815pm
i am super tired.
i can't stand this anymore
i just feel like giving up.
what keeps me going, is the fact that i know that GOD has a plan for me somehow. he protects me in little little ways, and that keeps my faith solid.
its difficult
i'll breakdown.
but someday, i'll be happy.
and when i am, this won't matter.
it gets worse before it gets better.
went to school, had english, supposed to write out storyline and plan for essay.
did it, then started to do step-by-step, the sequence.
then had recess.
super tired alr
like mentally
had recess.
had chinese.
FROM TUESDAY ONWARDS. I WILL LISTEN DURING LESSON.
that, is a promise i make.
aft that went to LT
in the midst of having hist lesson, i was emo.
its like nothing i said was the right answer.
i started to scold myself
like really.
then i got really emo, and that really drained the enrgy from me.
felt like crying.
got teary
but didn't cry.
i realised, that i can't really be who i am anymore.
what i used to be, is kept underneath.
is let loose only at home.
now, i can't even laugh at certain stuff.
i can't make jokes without knowing that i'll be embarrassed.
i can't NOT do what they want 'cos that'll just be social suicide.
i can't do LOTS of stuff.
it not the same.
its either them, or me.
but i think its me.
i'm not PMSing if that's what you're thinking.
its true.
think bout last year.
how was i like.
and compare.
i can never be myself.
that's why i stray way from stufs like that.
'cos i know that nobody really knows what i am like.
'cept my family.
never felt envy like this before.
not hatred, just envy, and wondering why i can't do it.
why i can't be original?
WHY?
WHY?!
science drained me.
and no, mr oon's scolding didn't help either.
call me weird, it actually affects me.
then aft that went to cafe.
then went up to class, to help clean the class and decorate it.
aft decoratng the board, cleaned the walls.
and then went to math class late.
[olympiad,]
then stayed for like 1 h +
then went bk to class.
and arranged tables.
into new seating.
then was late for piano
wenjie dropped meoff at little india mrt.
rushed to piano.
[thanks wenjie]
piano was tiring.
my hand hurt, n my head hurt.
it was playing, not the events that happened previosuly in the day.
and i kept yawning
was super tired.
1 peice, spent HALF an hour on it.
as in during lesson
came home
SUPER TIRED.
showered.
cried.
blogged.
time, 8.32pm
