KY. i <33>

i'm tired of all this CRAP.
C-R-A-P
so what if i changed?
so i always have to be the supportive one. but the one that's not supported?!

WHAT KIND OF SELFISH FREAKS YOU ALL ARE.
HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL!?
I ALWAYS NEED TO BE THERE FOR YOU, I ALWAYS NEED TO DEFEND YOU. I ALWAYS NEED TO GIVE YOU ADVICE. I ALWAYS NEED TO SUPPORT YOU
AND WHAT DO YOU DO FOR ME !?

you just dump me aside when i'm talking
you make me feel so freaking stupid
you make me so embarrassed. YOU STUPID BUNCH OF STUCK UP SNOBS!

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just some quizess from vicki's blog
vicki copyrightEd
(:

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A 'S'
Shumin
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS
Jenna's house lol.
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
"haha.. wait"
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Yep
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
yep. VERY. i intend to use the straightener. but i'm scared that'll make me look bald ;X
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
i have no idea.
Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
persons can? 6a 07 & my family lol.
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT?
"huh?"
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Maggie mee(lunch)
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT
joanna(sis) erh. can i lie on ur bed?
Q.DOYOUWATCH TV?
duh. who doesnt?
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
nope. never heard of it before too.
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
not for animals. but for lost stuffs. yep duh. i'm very forgetful
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
in my FANTASY future ( never gonna happen anyway )
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
erhm. to my family?
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
Studying&revising&exercising
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
duh. lots
alibaba-birdbird-sunny-lizard-beth-eli-lis-elis-ellie-elizabeth-mama-
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
nope. its stupid.
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
me lol
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
yep duh
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
nope haha.
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
i don't use one. much less, have one
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
in school. had a headache...during eng class
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
Nope.
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
as i said earlier. my memory isnt very good._______.
Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
Ky, Vicki, Huiying (: they rock my life <3
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
erhm. no? i think they're just bored ._____.

LAST
1) person you saw: sis
2) talked to on the phone: daddy
3) hugged: erhm. sis
4) person you texted:Gerald

TODAY
1) date: 26 April 08
2) plans: Emo revise sleep eat
3) dislikes about tomorrow:its the end of weekend

CURRENTLY
1) missing someone: actually, someoneS. 6a07. i dont miss 1e08 some of them are ... nvm
2) mood: depressed, tired and angry

TRUE OR FALSE
I am a morning person:yeh.
I am a perfectionist:Depends
I am an only child: false
I am currently in my pajamas:false(:
I am online 24/7: Nah.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Nope. been with them for 13 years.. waddya think._.
I can be paranoid: Sometimes,
I currently regret something that I have done:true
I enjoy talking on the phone: Depends.
I have a lot to learn: duh.
I have a secret: Many.

i'm too lazy to rip anymore. so haiz.
i'm off to emo and do my work.

22.4.08 haiz
today wasnt a good day.
1.
i was looking horrible today
2.
during art... ms kong asked kavern who was doing work.
then kavern said ' elisabeth and me (kavern)' then it was like......... ariel wanted to help. but
1 . she didnt have ppt, so she cldnt write the script.
2. she was told last minute.

WEIKAI :
- said he ' did the final editing ' but apparently 'cldnt send to us bcoz he didnt have internet'
what kind of crap?! so rich go and buy a router larh.
u go and sell one of ur hps. can buy alr.
- had it in his thumbdrive BUT didnt pass to us even though he had .. .. i dont know how many days.
- 'lost' his thumbdrive last minute.

CHINGYUEH:
-kavern dont tell him what to do. ( or explain)
-is away from school most of the time

see?>
and i
- transferred all the info from the file into ppt.
- helped to add pictures

and MANY MORE.
AND WHAT THE !!! I STILL HAVE TO GO AND DO ANOTHER PPT!?
HOW UNFAIR IS THAT.
AND KAVERN DONT HAVE TO.
I HELPED TOO OKAY.?!
JUST BCOZ KAVERN IS THE LEADER.
MS KONG TREATS HIM LIKE HE DID ALL THE WORK.
WHAT THE HECK.
TALK ABOUT BIASEDNESS.
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3.another incident of biasedness:
presentation this morning
i got 6/15.
3 for eyecontact 3 for tone
sucks huh.

then _________ went up.
and what the heck.
got 6/15 TOO
2 for eyecontact and 4 for tone
WHAT!? _______ DIDNT EVEN HAVE EYECONTACT.
AND I SPOKE BETTER?!
BIASEDNESS!!!!!!
JUST BECAUSE _______________ HATES ME, YOUSHLD STILL BE FAIR!
UR FAVOURTE STUDENT. WHATEVER.

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4.i saw _____________ today.
:( he looked pissed.
he looked irritated.
he looked at me as if i was the last thing on earth he would want to say.
what about those words you told to me?
i tried to talk to you
you know how much courage i had to muster up just to say ' HI?'
why'dya have to make me feel like shit.
why'dya have to treat ariel so bad? even a simple 'hi' to ariel would be oky.
why did you ahve to make me feel so embarrassed!?
why did you have to make me feel so unwelcome. so unwanted?!
i'm UNWANTED enough in SCHOOL.
GIMME A BREAK!

WHO CAN I EVER TURN TO TO NOT FEEL UNWANTED!? LIKE I'M WANTED. LIKE I'M WELCOME.!?

5.
and i disappointed myself.
what happened to my stamina?
this process is so difficult.
esp with D____ teasing me about stuff that i dont wanna be teased about.
how'dya think i feel huh d______
i thought you were my friend.
whenever you just had a bad day. you take it out on me. i comfort you. i listen to you.
i lend you a shoulder to cry on. and you turn hyper. i dont mind.
then you start to tease me.
ITS THE SAME CYCLE.
STOP IT.

6.today i was also supposed to go to yijing's house.
but yijing and jenna were both doing their ppt. since their GROUP couldnt care enough to help.
its sad.
SAD.
SAD

7.on the bus home, i SERIOUSLY considered suicide.
no not cut myself.
SUICIDE.
its........ scary.
i never thought that i would think about it before.
before i reached sec1.
everything in my life was still going right.
turns out, my life wasnt ever so perfect before.
suicide, now it dont seem so scary an option
its a very tempting option.
VERY.

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE LOVED.
ITS SO HURTING YOU KNOW.
like, everybody is just making use of you. or jsut PUTTING up with you.


and you do things for people, and don get even a THANKS? or even a ENTHUSIASTIC SUPPORT ?!
i mean.
its like. i never wish to understand how people feel.
i DO. but i DON'T WANT TO
IT JUST MAKES MY LIFE WORSE
DAY BY DAY
by the end of the week, i'll be dead.
even before my exam.s
there's just no more hope in my life.
maybe i'm giving up too early on my life.
but i'm too lousy for anything.
i've taken advantage of alot of things.

argh.
THAT IRRITATING PERSON!!!!!
ARGH.
every morning . have to come isit.
every morning. have to call me that isit
every day. act as if you're oh-so-good.
ARGH. SEEING YOU MAKES ME PUKE.
good thing i wont be seeing you forever. since i'll be dead by the end of the week.
just rmb that if you call me THAT agian. i'll NEVER EVER TALK TO YOU

weeeheee. my 100th post!!!
okay anyway
i found this REALLY cool quiz on vicki's blog ( copyrighted vicki -._________________ + ) haha okay
so here it is.
1. whats your name spelt backwards?
HTEBASILE. you can try to read it... good luck (:

2. What did you do last night?
... sleep . D-UH
(what else could i be doing?? -.-)
.3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
a software? for a CREATIVE webcam (:

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
Nope. i wouldnt want to anyway

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
FRIDAY!._______.

6. What are you wearing?
do you REALLY need to know?
school tee and pe shorts.

7. How many cars have you owned?
.... none. but hope to have one...

8. Type of music you dislike most?
scream.

9. Are you registered to vote?
duh not.

10. Do you have cable?
yeap XD

11. What kind of computer do you use?
brand? err the cpu is duno waht brand but the screen is JVC. (:

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
never CALLEd. but always TOOK part. xD

13. You like anyone right now?
nope. i love everybody XD

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
... scaredof heights. dont evenBOTHER asking.

15. Furthest place you ever traveled?
CHINA. (:

16.Do you have a garden?
YEAP its for GOLDIE to run around (:

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
BABY BLUES & GET FUZZY XD

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
Duh. 12 years in singapore hasnt been wasteD!!!xD

19. Shower, morning or night?
BOTH. liketa feel fresh!

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
.... duno?

21. Favorite pizza toppings?
Cheese.

22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.

23. What cell phone provider do you have?
Singtel( not like u need to know anyway -..........-)

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
- never smoked. never intend to.
- PEANUT SHELLS?!/1?!??!?! WHAT THE HECK._______.

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
nope... never'll be in one

26. Orange Juice or apple?
APPLE.. d-uh.

27. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
ollie and joanna (:

28. favorite chocolate bar?
Dairy Milk!<33

29. Who is your longest friend and how long?
GOD. eternity. <33333!
FAMILY. 12 years <33

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Never ate one.ewwww.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
one? yes. two? no.

32.Favorite artist?
errrh .
song - duno.
painting - no interst(:

33. Favorite computer game?
None currently.(stopped since last year_)
34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
huh?wads .. infomercial???

35. Sprite or 7-UP?
7-up.. definitely.(:

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?To school?
Of course!

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens?
Huh?no. since i have NO idea where walgreens is.

38. Ever thrown up in public?
Yes. :(... in school.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
mone ( not equal to) happiness. waddya think?

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope. 'cos that would be LUST.
how can you tell somebod's nice anyway.......(by first sight.)

41.Can exes just be friends?
d-uh!! for me.. anyway

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My dad, office (:

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?
Yes.. i'm still a kid.

44. What message is on your voicemail machine?
None.

45. Where would you like to go right now?
somewhere, no where, everywhere?

46. What was the name of your first pet?
Lucy <33

47. What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
which bag? XD

48. Last incoming/outgoing call on your phone?
incoming - Benny.
Outgoing - Benny.
( he called me but i didnt pick up X: )

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
i am alive.

50. What do you think about most?
why i am still alive everyday? basically... emo stuff.

a DEDICATING post


this is dedicated to ms yin
: MS Yin!
i know that one of your family members is in a critical condition alr. but i just want you to know that 6A IS BEHIND YOU!
even though you're in the front and you have to fight it by urself. 6a will be there to catch you if any disaster happens.
i know you think that u are not appreciated. but you are our favourite teacher.
i know that you are very sad or depressed or whatever. but you got to be strong. you got to perserver. even if he enters that door. you know that SOMEDAY you'll see him again.
i hate seeing you so sad everyday
'cos it just makes me feel more useless than i already am. useless in a sense that i cant cheer you up....
when you always do cheer me up...
thanks ms yin for everythin<333




NADHIRAH
love you nad... you always cheer me up
and well you make me hyper when you do
i know i'm freaking emo these days. but well, its part of a process of growin up
i thought i was over it long ago. but u know.
all these confidence issues are taking a toll of me.
i guess its just a different group of people
you dont feel emo kayS?
oh yeah i love you!!!<333
and i know you love me too<33333 XD

KAIYEE : lol
i miss those butting-each-other days. i miss those days where we just jumped around and had fun.
i kinda miss those silent moments too
it was fun.
it was exhilarating.
it was satisfying
it was hyper
it was everything i wanted
<33
your imperfections just make you perfect.



VICKI : <33
booyar!!! !
haha
how's life ? tough huh.
i <33! your sense of humour. its sO cutee111111
haha. if u ever feel emo (hardly. your life's almost perfect)
TELL ME
I <33333 3you1!!!!!


kelLER : you make me laugh
XD
YOU MAKE ME LAUGH
YOU ARE SO CUTE
<33
hahahahhahaahahha
dont do stupid thigns even though you're angry/ sad / depressed wadever.
u could juts tell me.
sometimes JUST telling somebody would release the anger.
okay?
<33


SHUMIIN!!!!!
YOu'Re LIKE NO OTHER FRIEND I EVER HAD
OKAY THATS ALL I CAN Say xD oh yeah . i say
GIVE UP ON TDH!!!!
XD
GO FOR HC!!!! XD AHAHAHAH


okay tatata
dedications<33

heyo . back to another update in the life of ME.
another kinda-emo- post. again.
haiz.
starting with yesterday.
boring boring boring.
ever since THAT mrs _____ scolded me
i've been avoiding her.
and apparently she told ms ____ so i also decided to leave the two of them alone.
whats the point? since you would be ' some time now or later ' get scolded AGAIN
besides. it would save me the embarrassment of having YET another teacher disappointed
list of teachers hating me :
1. ms K___
2.Mrs N-
3.Mrs W____
4. Mr S__
5.. . .. . and lots more to go.

what happened to me?!
what HAPPENEd. to the pupil that was on good terms with almost all the teachers.
WHAT TWIST OF FATE HAPPENED?!
seems like everybody else is adapting well to sec life except me.

i dont want to talk abotu it anymore.
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today we had swimming.
oh great i can(t) dive.
and --- --- JUST had to go and make fun of me.
i mean its like
okay if MR S___ says it. not like i care. its a fact
but you dont have to go and LAUGH at me

L-A-U-G-H AT ME
how in the world can you be so INSENSITIVE?!
HOW IN THE WORLD CAN U BE SO HEARTLESS
AT LEAST S--- --- HAS THE COURTESY TO NOT LAUGH AND ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPANED.
DONT YOU EVEN KNOW THAT THATS LIKE MY WEAKEST POINT?! !?!?!? SO WHAT IF YOU'RE BONE SKINNY. NOT LIKE I CARE. AT FIRST I THOUGHT YOU WERE INNOCENT. TURNS OUT. YOU THINK SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELF THAT NOBODY REALLY BOTHERS TO BE AROUND YOU.
THATS WHY YOU SUCK

S-U-C-K

I know that you eng aint very good. so i spelt it out for you.


that was a prettty angry post.
anyway.
keller you rock my world
!!!

YOU SO CUTE SEH>
XD
thats why i laugh until siao alr
xD
oh yeah i'll link u as soon as i can? (:
as well as sauching
<333!>



hAVE I MENTIONED? we were playing
truth orand truth today super fun larh!
hen shuminrevealed sth
haha
then lter when dummy walked past - i was high -

TDH!!!!!!!
then yr came in and in and i was like ' D!!!!'
oh yeah btw TDH = talkative dark hilarious

just kidding
ya'll shld know what it stand for
XD


okay i think i've spilled enouggh
is that what u wanted. KAVERN?
=elisabeth
(not like you can do anything)

i'm going to snap
...
i've never felt so useless. so busy. so forgotten. so USED.
i know. whats me problem huh.
i aint worth anythin.
oh great.
i'm blaming my emotions all on sports day.
just incase anybody didnt know. it was sports day. but i doubt anybody would wanna know . . . . my blog's hardly read.
well its not a good feeling. but what can i do? be the irritating jerk going round and saying ' VISIT MY BLOG AND TAG!!!'
-.- wadever . i tried that already. never worked out.
argh
its so discouraging you know?
okay so what i've been involved in 200m, 400m, 4X100m before?
apparently to some people i'm just useless . . . .
apparently they've never met me before. how would they even know tht i couldnt run?
no i'm not blaming ms kong for not choosing me. i'm blaming SOMEBODY for making fun of me and telling me that i'm just an ass.
wadevre. its not like i care. i get that kind of comments all the time.
but everytime i do, i go home and i lock myself up in some corner and cry myself to sleep
and the next day i go to school acting like its all right and i get hurt again
its such a familiar cycle its almost like a routine.
yeah u might think after a while it goes away.
but it doesnt.

argh! i HATE jealousy.
and i hate myself for having jealousy
i see all their medals shining in the sun.
what the heck .. .. argh!
shocker for all : i used to have a medal of sports. and well, my only medal. i'm not realy good at studies. .... not a shocker.


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i wish that ican just curl up in a corner. and hopefully-die...
no more busy schedules.
no more having to let people down(muchless,myself)
no more having to put up with criticsm and acting like its all right
no more having people yell and shout at me
no more having people forgetting who i am and thinking i'm just ' oh that ass in our class right?'
no more having people USING me for the benefit.
no more having people making fun of me. trying to use every single thing against me
no more having to act good
no more having to live life.

i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

BLOGSHOP
CLASSBLOGS!
6a 07 clssblog<3
1e 08 class blog<33
1i 08 class blog(:
XINGHUA
ChinKeong<3
Daniel leong<3
EvelynXD
Farah<3
HanJingXD
Jack<3
JitHui<3
Julian<3
JunHao<3
Jessie<33
Jolina<3
Kaiyee<33
kiaYeeXD
maira<3
Melissa
Ms Yin<3
Nadhirah<33
Nic
Pandora
QiaoHui
Theresa<3
TeckHwee<3
Terry<3
Thiru<3
Vicki<33
Xin yuan
YiJie<3
YuHe<3
ZhiJie
HCIS!
Abigail<33
AishynXD
Charlotte(:
Dario<33
GERALD<33
Glenda<33
Joanna Chong<33
Keller<33
KirstyXD
Ryan<33
Sauching<3
SHUMIN<33
YIHUI<3
OTHERS
ClarissaXD
Dawn(:
Debbie(:
HuiYing<33
Joanna(sis)<333
Veronica
CHURCH
Charis<3
Jael<3
Jiaen<3
XinShi<3

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