Monday, March 30, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
k this is a sorta emo post.
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but i really can't stand it lah.
u want to hate me, just hate me
don't try to come pretend like you're my best friend then start to come and start acting like i'm all wrong and i'm a stupid idiot who's opinions are not worth listening to.
i know i'm bad
but i'm not that bad.
sucks lah.
everything i do
everything i say
you think i'm the same as you?
i don't talk then fall in love ok.
it doesn't work that way
what's wrong
she doesn't even mind.
and u start thinking, oh , just 'cos you fell into ' love' like that. i will too?
NO INTEREST.
GETTIT!?
want me only to go along 'cos u duwan to be alone right
USE ME.
USE ME BUY THIS.
BUY THAT.
DO THIS.
DO THAT.
HOW U THINK I FEEL?
everything i do, i dont get anything from it.
u got help everywhere u go. i don't have any okay.
you do.
and yet you get everything.
breaking down.
i know i wasn't very nice
but
DON'T ACT ALL PISSED
THEN STILL HANG OUT WITH US.
ITS NOT EVEN LIKE MY FAULT CAN.
maybe part.
but
like
u don't need to act like everything is my fault.
then like an hour ltr
like nothing happen.
I DON'T RECOVER SO FAST OKAY.
I'M STILL HURT.
I PUT ON A FAKE SMILE BECAUSE I'M NICE.
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS AND GET INTO DEEP TROUBLE.
i think before i act.
you should too.
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yesterday had yf.
was pianist.
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piano sounded like it was muted
duno
maybe they cldn't hear my mistakes lohs
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forum was..
awkward
like ------------- was unsure of how to answer our questions.
then ------------ stare over at me, like as if i owe her living
ofcos idun care lah.
i understand but it wasn't like i wasn't listening right.
i mean if it was my dad, i wld like ppl to listen too
but i was listening loh.
make such a big deal.
it's not like i don't show you any respect.
then aft yf
uncle ethan shoo-ed us off 'cos of some reason he wanted to talk to the english side
WOAH. big embarrassment.
only jiaen my sis and me left.
cos we were the only chi side.
[ ironic ain't it]
then aft that my sis went home
then at church
uncle ethan msg me, say he very sorry 'cos his dismissal was very harsh
then he told me what he talked to the english side about.
i mean u talk like that to them, they also will be insulted
like as if its their responsibility
-.-
its not lah.
like we de zui them
i duwan it to be like that
---------------
then came home and slept for like super long
8pm - 5 in the morn
that's why i wasn't tired when i went to sch with joanna 'cos daddy was sick.
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then today bad stuffs happened.
not talking to ___ again
since it got such bad response
WHAT EVER.
THINK THAT WAY.
i tried to emphasize my point
but whatever i say, you guys don't listen
so what ever.
i'm not out to hurt anybody.
so don't make me.
Saturday, March 14, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
haha today was fun.
first wokeup at like 730 then ate bkfast, showered, played abit of piano
then set off for RELC Hotel
for ABRSM grd5 theory exam
lols
woah the lobby was like super crowded lahs
then went into the exam hall
lol
i saw
its
grd5 's' paper
lols
then i did my paper
section by section
then after doing each question
i'd check again
then after the section i'll check the entire section
then i did the whole paper
then
i checked each one again,
and i spotted one mistake
xD
then
handed in the paper after 1 h30 min
woah
i tell u, the exam hall was like almost 3/4 empty
lols.
but most of them are like grd 1-4-.-
lols
then i went with mommy to far east
ate a kfc
guess wad! i'm a CHICKY MEMBER-.-
10% discount everytime i go there and pizzahut
xD
haha
then went in
and found this super cute shoe shop
mommy bought 2 shoes
i said i cld orrow from her
but i really like the wedges
super nice
its a nice shade of purple too
maybe i'll wear it to the gala dinner [90th anniversary,hwachong]
lol.s.
then went searching for a dress
didn't really find many nice ones
lols
then saw one super nice nice nice one
lols.
walked round sommore
then went back and bought that super nice dress.XD
then took a drink
then went to kinokuniya
lols
to spend the $70 vouchers i got from prize-giving
xD
then bought kenken book1,2
sudoku gold,
books
books
books
wanted to get jodi picoult handle with care,
but yuh
>,<
cldn't
'cos too ex.
this year, i'll do better
:)
then i can get more voucher
then can buy more books
MWAHAHAHA
ok
then came home
haha
at about 4.30
so i started out at 830
bought 8 hours
PHEW!!
Sunday, March 8, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
haha today was FUN.
=D
morning woke up at 930 blahblahblha read book practice piano,
then went to church
had sunday school.
HAHA.
the lesson was fun.
and like erhm i had to share my testimony on how god protected me during my trip to thailand [SEAMC09]
haha.
but i'm doing it nxt week.
XD
then had a little discussion after lesson 'cos the adults havn't finished their svc.
talking about the dinosaurs.xD
then aft tht
went over to fsc. [ student care centre of JSM]
then like all the youths were there like. 20 of us ..
split into 5 groups
grouped with jiaen, clement,yang en.
lOLS.
then had to make a volcano
or sth
haha
out of flour
HAHa.
then like super funny lah
'cos we put the flour first
then i duno why we keep adding water
xD
until super sticky
HAHA.
then we add sommore flour
haha
then okay le.
butthen the volcano is uneven
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lols
so made sommore
then abit fat
then had to smooth it out
xD
then clement was playing with the flour,
like he wanted ppl to pour it in his hand, instead of bringing the bowl,
then all of us were like... erh...
HAHa.
xD
then we finished
and we poured some colouring
but one side got too much le
then clement went to make a smiley face-.-
like literally.
lols.
wanted to take photo
but my hands were like...
XD full of flour and stuffs.
i'll ask uncle paul and auntie dawn for photos ltr.
then had competition
lols
then like it was funny larh
the comments.
xD
and ours
'cos we made the 'lava' come out.
it was really a nice colour
and grp 3's one right
was like alr red,[volcano]
then the lav was more red,
then it looked super bloody
xD
haha
then ours was okay.
then aft that
we cleaned up
then joyce was commentin on how she doesn't use broom, she uses vaccuum.
xD
then she say broom is old fashion
then weiliang was like : shi ma?
LOLS.
then went back to church
ate at church
XD
church felt like super quiet
>< lol
all the ppl go home le.
then waited for super long for 70/70m
haiiz.
lols.
2 '7' came 2 '197' came
:(
haha
but thank God
for his guidance throughout today
it was fun, but my leg hurts like crap.
i hope more things like this happen.
it was great fellowship.
