there are really so many things going on in my mind right now
1. this is entirely embarssing
i know, its just a stupid website.
but
i feel like an idiot
actually, i feel like an idiot any where outside class.
that's just who i am
i'm an idiot
a big fat idiot
what you going ot do about it?
i'm angry
but i'm not angry at anyone.
i'm angry i wasted my money
now i have to survive on such little money
i'm angry i told you
i'm angry i didn't do it earlier
i'm angry i didn't talk to them
i'm angry i'm not popular
but i'm not blaming god
'cos i'm made like this.

i wish that i didn't hang out with you guys
it just makes it way worse.
it makes it WORSE because i get more jealous everyday
because i get more left out everyday
you all get included in class And outside class.
i dont
that's why i dont smile.
that's why my face muscles don't move.
that's why i'm so lifeless.

and i'm going to stay that way
i dont know for how long
but you can't do anything.
im sorry
i'm sorry i made you even know me
i'm sorry i hung out with you guys
, make you all waste your time and money on me.
i'm sorry
i'm sorry for everything i did to you
i'm sorry if i offended you

i wish that now you would juststay away from me, just let me live my sad and lonely world.
i wish that you would do that, if not you'll just hurt yourself and me more.
i'll just be a loser for life. and i accept that.
i just dont want you to be hurt

and whats worse, is i can't do anything about it.
you don'tknow how much of a coward i am.
sometimes i even question if i'm living
i have like no more feelings.
i dont think
i dont do anything.
its just all by instinct
im doing everything mindlessly.

i love you guys, but you really got to stay away from me. even if it kills me, i don't want to live with the fact that i hurt you.
because i want to leave this world in a quiet manner.
it would be nice to be appreciated,
but i'm not.
so
just stay away.
it'll do you and your popularity good.
not having to stick aroudn with me any longer.

i will dragf you down with your studies
especially with the upcoming EOY's
i'm selfish
i dont share my work
i'm stupid.
i dont get my work right
i'm jealous.
i'm emo.
i'm everything an unpopular girl is.
tell the truth, eveyrbody else knows somebody else from another level and is actually good friends.
me?

i'm a nobody.
they only know me as ' a girl who hangs out with THEM'
THEM referring to the SUPERIOR three.
yeah you knwo who i'm talking about.
the populars.

i shouldnt even be here.
i shouldnt even be anywhere.

i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

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Julian<3
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Jessie<33
Jolina<3
Kaiyee<33
kiaYeeXD
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Melissa
Ms Yin<3
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Nic
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QiaoHui
Theresa<3
TeckHwee<3
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Thiru<3
Vicki<33
Xin yuan
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ZhiJie
HCIS!
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OTHERS
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