nothing i do is ever correct. NOTHING.
nothing i do is ever pleasing. NOTHING.
ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT I'M NOT WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE.
I'm not blaming it on anybody. buT I CAN'T HELP IT.
you don't even see how much i cry behind your back.
you don't see how much effort i PUT IN.
i just can't be the same as last time.
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FACE THAT FACT.
i'm trying. i really am.
i've just lost it.
i didn't use it, so GOD took it away.
so now i'm left with nothing.
i can't be the same anymore.

Do you think that i don't feel bad whenver there is something wrong?
don't you EVER THINK about how i feel after a practice, when nothing seems to turn out right?
JUST 'cos you're SO good at it, doens't mean i am.
just 'cos its ' supposed ' of me, and the others aren't doing it anymore.
just 'cos all of THEM. have mastered in it.
i just don't have the GIFT.

i'm SORRY. if i made you think that i had it
i'm SORRY. if i did it once, but i can't do it again.
i'm SORRY.
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
i'm losing contrl of my life.
i don't know what i'm doing.
i'm breaking all rules.
i'm stressed out.
i'm putting pressure on myself like never before.
i'm SENSITIVE.
and it makes it all worse.

no dobut, i want to go back to those days.

but you know what? i'm NEVER going back to those days.
its way out of my league.
i'm never going to make it.
so don't put your hopes so high on me.
making it all worse when i don't go so high.
making me feel like an idiot and useless after evrything.

Just, DON'T
i'm sick of crap
i'm sick of it
i'm sick of everything.
i want it to come back, it just wont'

you never see how much i work, just to please you.
you just never see.

i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

BLOGSHOP
CLASSBLOGS!
6a 07 clssblog<3
1e 08 class blog<33
1i 08 class blog(:
XINGHUA
ChinKeong<3
Daniel leong<3
EvelynXD
Farah<3
HanJingXD
Jack<3
JitHui<3
Julian<3
JunHao<3
Jessie<33
Jolina<3
Kaiyee<33
kiaYeeXD
maira<3
Melissa
Ms Yin<3
Nadhirah<33
Nic
Pandora
QiaoHui
Theresa<3
TeckHwee<3
Terry<3
Thiru<3
Vicki<33
Xin yuan
YiJie<3
YuHe<3
ZhiJie
HCIS!
Abigail<33
AishynXD
Charlotte(:
Dario<33
GERALD<33
Glenda<33
Joanna Chong<33
Keller<33
KirstyXD
Ryan<33
Sauching<3
SHUMIN<33
YIHUI<3
OTHERS
ClarissaXD
Dawn(:
Debbie(:
HuiYing<33
Joanna(sis)<333
Veronica
CHURCH
Charis<3
Jael<3
Jiaen<3
XinShi<3

Sorry the music is reallyirritating<3

Designer
Imageshack
Image: x
AdobePhotoshop/Imageready
Dafont
Brushes: Deviantart
Please leave the credits alone, thanks