seriously emo-ing.
i feel like i've lost my importance in this world.
like.....
i'm not meant to be here

i dont know why it took me SO LONG to realise that .....
my life is full of screwups.
my life is so screwed
there's no way of putting all the pieces back together.
i'm just useless.
i'm a freak.
i'm a dumbass.
i just suck.
i'm weird.
i'm so gullible.
i don't have an opinion of my own.
i do'nt know how to stand up on my own.
i'm an embarrassing nerd.
i bring everybody down.

sometimes i think that i'm the worst out of the whole sec 1s in Singapore.
and probably in the whole world.
my life is SO SCREWED UP.
i don't feel safe everywhere.
i don't feel safe at home.
i don't feel safe at school.
i keep feeling as if somebody's gonna put me down
somebody's gonna criticize me.
somebody's gonna mock me
i'm just gonna embarrass myself.
I DON'T WANT TO BE THOUGHT OF THAT WAY.
i am a FREAKIN IDIOT!
i just want to die.
seriously.
but you know what,
i don't even have the GUTS to.
exams.
everybody's so good.
wahts the point of studying.
its not like i'll beat them anyway.
whats the point.
breaking down in tears doesn't save my marks
breaking down in tears doesn't make me satisfied.
i have totally NO control of what im' saying
what i'm doing.
I FEEL LIKE A FREAKING IDIOT
I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF.
the more i say that.
the more i have guts to.

i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

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CLASSBLOGS!
6a 07 clssblog<3
1e 08 class blog<33
1i 08 class blog(:
XINGHUA
ChinKeong<3
Daniel leong<3
EvelynXD
Farah<3
HanJingXD
Jack<3
JitHui<3
Julian<3
JunHao<3
Jessie<33
Jolina<3
Kaiyee<33
kiaYeeXD
maira<3
Melissa
Ms Yin<3
Nadhirah<33
Nic
Pandora
QiaoHui
Theresa<3
TeckHwee<3
Terry<3
Thiru<3
Vicki<33
Xin yuan
YiJie<3
YuHe<3
ZhiJie
HCIS!
Abigail<33
AishynXD
Charlotte(:
Dario<33
GERALD<33
Glenda<33
Joanna Chong<33
Keller<33
KirstyXD
Ryan<33
Sauching<3
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YIHUI<3
OTHERS
ClarissaXD
Dawn(:
Debbie(:
HuiYing<33
Joanna(sis)<333
Veronica
CHURCH
Charis<3
Jael<3
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