ever noticed how much life sucks.
how much life sucked
and how much life will suck.

ever felt like you're not wanted?
like you're there 'cos you are forced to.
like you're an outsider
like you're alone.

and.
ever felt like you've failed your family,
your friends.
your teachers
your relatives
... and yourself.
ever lived with this guilt
ever lived like a criminal
ever lived like ME?

ever lived with this constant pressure?
with this sense of unbelonging
with this sense of..... unrespected.?

that's how I FEEL.
you don't even KNOW.
you don't even CARE
ALL of you don't care.
you never do.
you never did.
you never will.
so whats the point?

wha'ts the point of living when no one else believes in you
and when you don't believe in yourself
what's the point of living when life sucks so much
when nobody just wants to accept you for who you are.
what's the point of living when living is like...

being dead?

whats the point of living when nobody cares if you're around?
whats the point of living when there's nothing in life to be happy about/

its all FAKE smiles.
its all LIES.
its all CRAP.
its all stupid

what makes me different from them?
that i look different?
that i act different?
that i SPEAK different?
that i have different morals?
that i'm brought up differently?!

WHAT MAKES ME SO UNNOTICED?
WHAT MAKES ME SO UNWANTED
YOU TELL ME.

whymust you set me up in this big huge mass of lies. promises and deception.
WHY!?

WHY NOT JUST LET ME DIE?!
WHY DO YOU KEEP HAVING TO PRETEND?!
it just hurts MORE.
to know that you're acting
to know that i have to act along
to know that you don't really care.
even if i really want you to.


why did yuo even come into my life.
why did all of you even come into my life.
why did all of you just have to set my life into a big mess.
first tell me that i'm included.
then just push me out when i'm not needed.

why first act like you accept me for me.
and wait for me to discover that you don't?

WHY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A BIG FAT IDIOT BEING SLAPPED RIGHT IN THE FACE?!

i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

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