Saturday, June 14, 2008'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
-slips into emo zone-
talk about a bruised ego.
today i went out as a happy and contented person. it changed though.
i find myself worse.
i find myself fatter.
i find myself uglier
i find myself emo-er
i find myself slouching.
i find myself stressed.
i find myself obsessing.
i find myself dreaming.
.......
no work done.
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i'm behind by 2 chapters of science, i'm wasting my time watching movies and listenin to music.
i'm slipping away from God and from my family.
and i find all my siblings getting closer to god and my family.
i just dont believe that i'm even alive.
i dont believe that i'm here.
and worse still, i dont want to believe that i'm alive.
what i really need now is lots of love, and hopefully a perfect man.
i wish that i can grow up. to go to oxford and fufill my dreams. ...now.