Thursday, March 20, 2008'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
where were you guys when i needed you the most? its all excuses and excuses again AND again. i just acted as if i'm totally fine with it because i didnt want to start another fight. not after olivia.
but you know what? it doesnt pay off. people just take advantage of me.
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I DONT TAKE INTEREST IN THESE WORLDLY THINGS ANYMORE?
. not neoprints. not accessories to signify friendship. not you.
i thought you were my dream friend, somebody to rely on, somebody to study with, to laugh with, to have fun with. turns out, you only wanted to have fun. how can best friends be like that?
how can best friends be like thaT? best friends go throughout the hardest times together. turns out, i've nothing to rely on. back in school, except God. 'cos , simply, nobody cares about me.
everybody just cares about what use i am to them. if i'm of no use, dump aside.
nobody understands what i'm going through . a tough change and a resistance of temptation.
NOBODY understands, at least not somebody from where i go to. its like, i'm ALONE. i turn to God for help, but turns out, maybe this is just a test of my faith.
i'm really disappointed after what happened today. but i'm just trying to control myself, from slapping you, from fighting with you, as the old me would have done. Even the GUYS would be better friends than you.
really, disappointed and let down.
maybe this is how it should be. but its all about sacrifice. right?
-elisabeth
