Friday, December 14, 2007'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
posting time...
i feel so new..
like.. i have cut my hair, i have lost those troubles etc...
but i still feel that part of meWANTS to be my old self
HAHA its so funny
when i had troubles, time passed SOOOOO quickly
when i DONT have troubles, time passes like... wooahh so slow
haha
the 'tough' exterior HAS broken down a few hours or days ago...
i dont feel like fighting with anybody now
i dont feel like 'impressing' him anymore
i dont feel like shooting out bad comments
i dont feel like destroying the other party
i just dont feel like
its a tough change
but i gotta take big steps to change my attitude if not, i'll be lonely in sec school
yesterday night, i had a fearful dream that i'll be the loner in the school, the person that everybody teases & has to fend for herself..
will i really be like that??
i keep picturing myself going up to somebody and say sth like, hi... i'm elisabeth or sth like that
just be friendly
but then, what if...
they just stare at me as if i was the worst loser in the whole universe??
what if they just ignore me and leave me standing there feeling so embarrassed..
i dont know if this is the correct thing for me to do..
whtever it is, i'm going to do it...
haiz
i gotta be in the same school with them for 6 years anyway....
these few days, i feel peaceful
as christmas draws, i feel the spirit of christmas
that peacefullness, that kind of serenity
the joy the happiness in the air
no troubles, no nothing
i'll be in church, listening & singing
and it would be a great day
and well, i hope that i would get wahtever i want for my birthday =)
BTW THE THAILAND TRIP WAS GREAT
PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED ANOTHER TIME
ITS ALOT OF PHOTOS SO YEAH BE PATIENT ;D