Monday, October 29, 2007'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
LIFE IN SCHOOL (after exams)
went to school.
experimented a side parting for fringe.
i found it quite okay.. infact.. i think i look better.
and i look so.. toot with centre parting.
i mean .. its' like.. a new look.
lets just say... i'm not comfortable with my old look
and ... some people.
hmm lemme think of names for THEM.
hmmmmmmmmmmm yeah! i got it
toot and tooties
toot at first stared at me with that.. 'what kind of monster ARE you' kind of look
as if i was from another planet
toooties.. on the other hand
started off like..
' HI.... hi (:'
and it wasnt until LATER that tooties realised that i had a side parting and went..
' eee... not nice..'
and
after that.
i went to ask kai yee...
' really very bad meh? '
kai yee said.
' i prefer centre parting
but I prefer a side parting
DEAL WITH IT
its MY hair and I can DO whatevr i want with it
... just when i thought life WAS getting better, nah.. everything just subsided.
the more you say its ugly, the MORE i will do it
'cos i LIKE it
arGH
i'm starting to be all sensitive again
haiz
its like.. when you're around girls, you dont REALLY have fun..
'cos its like.. everybodys so sensitive and stuff
gee. sometimes i ask myself twice about you.
but once i see you... i get all tongue twisted.
and i fall for it.
haiz.. i dont even know if its real.
now i really AM trying to prioritize my life.. now that psle is OVER
PRIORITIES ::
1. GOD
2. FAMILY
3. FRIENDS
4. STUDIES
5. 6A
6.Music
7. somebody
8. me
yeah i guess thats it
anyway
then aft tha.t
boring..
boring.
THE STUPID SS EXAM
PHEW! i'm SO GLAd it's FINALLY over
no MORE stupid nagging
but ofcourse.. ther'es more nagging about our appearances
HAIZ
i will miss 6A
and even though this MAY sound wierd....
i WILL miss xinghua
today mrs ram told us sth..
that hit me alot..
' when you're working, you wish that you were still studying.
but when you're studying, you wish thatyou were working...'
.. i REALLY want to take control of my life now.. and start to lead it.
i want to ENJOY studying.
i shall not say anything more about the teachers.
'cos they arent that evil as we think they are
'cos i mean.. if I was the teacher, i would also be like that..
so i cannot say anything.
ofcourse, i would be fair.
unlike them.
some people might think that it is a 'natural reaction' .. but ithink otherwise..
it's NOT a natural reaction.
most of us think that its.. 'COOL' to like.. act as if you hate the teachers.. but now, ithink that its unfair.
yeah they may 'spy' on us.
but we should also consider their feelings.
i mean. how would you feel.. if the STUDENTS that you have known, write sth bad about you.
you will feel as if... ... nvm
i shall try not to ..
'lecture' people
anyway
so after that
recess.
mr jeevan punished our class
but he MAde a fool of himself
no offence.
but serious.
i mean
even HE smiled
and he said
' you're a PREFECt.. and you STILL dare to smile..'
he's... making a fool of himself by saying that
i mean... SERIOUS
but i shall not continue anymore about him.
so blahblah blah
after school,
we stayed back
and well.
it wasnt much
but here's the highlight of the day
at first.
teck hwee, ck, dilon, yijie, kai yee and ME were at the meeting
then john came
then kai yee left
then yijie left
then dilon left
then OKAY
left with teck hwee, john, ck and ME
so.. we did a few more personal stuffs.
then..
after that, we talked
about thingoes
like personal stuff.
and who we liked and stuff
and we had to CONFESS
as in SAY It out
even though it was SO obvious HAHA
but yeah.. they're real friends
and good ones too
well. sometimes its wierd to be friends with like guys??????
isit?
i dont know
... but it was REALLY fun to talk to them
and they were touching too
they were nice
and i didnt feel left out.
as i usually did..
around him
i dont know why.
he just.......responds in such a way that i feel like a big doofus....
i guess i AM one .. but..
sometimes i have to have confidence
so i think... that i cannot blame him
'cos.....
aiya
he just acts wierd to me
i dont see the problem with talking to me
isit so funnny? isit so..
scary?
its not as if i'm gonna make fun of you or anything.
i didnt when you were a fool. i tried not to.. and i didnt.
so just ... nvm
anyway
we were thinkin.. the committee go to dont know where LOL to chill
but i'm SCARED OF HEIGHTS
sometimes. i really dont feel like hanging out with toots and tooties.
sometimes i feel comfortable hanging out with the guys
it means NOTHING.
it's just... like... they dont... put you down for every little change.
like when i wear SOMETHING.
toots will comment
and if i tie high, or i tieall my frnge back, toots and tooties will comment and say ' no i dont like it..'
isit possible that they'rejealous? no.. cant be.
they're already the most popular....
whatever it is.
i'm NOT gonnna change myself
i'm gonna do whatever i believe
i shall wear whatever i wantto wear
i shall wear skirts, high heels and a side parting.
you know what? yeah. its not your style.
i know. you're style is pants.
but you gotta learn how to wear both
i feel hurt and discouraged, yet angry and rebellious at the same time.
but i'm trying to contain it all
maybe something good will happen...
in the next few days
i wish.
i hope..
and i hafto go....
bye
xoxo, Elisabeth
