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Sunday, September 2, 2007'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"


why do i feel neglected? ignored? underestimated???

haiz.

have i been too bad to some people?

when i was sitting in the car just now, i thought about how kai yee has been treating me

well, maybe not the best, but then i thought about secondary school life *it'sgonnastartsoon*

then i thought like.. how am i gonna fit in? am i gonna have friends?maybe i have been taking advantage of everything that i have... friends for example...

idont know if anybody can even forgive me now...

idont know if anybody will still want to be friends with me

i bet that even if i sent invites to everybody *for my imaginary birthday partY* i doubt that anybody would show up..

why do i feel that way? shldn't i feel confident?

shouldnt i feel as if i'll get along? isn't that... what we're all supposed to feel?

why isit so difficult then?

why isit so difficult to get into the school that i want to get into?

why isit so difficult to put aside everything?

why isit so difficult to just be strong? instead of being a weakling?

why isit so difficult to just help other people?

why isit so difficult to not get irritated easily

why isit just SO difficult to just be myself?

....

ishldnt be feeling this shld i?....... why do i feel so afraid of being myself, of risking stuffs...

sorry everybody that i have offended. i hope you will forgiveme

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i keep dreaming myself up on that stage, singing a song that i love that is dedicated to my favourites.

Mrs chan, Ms Yin, 6a, joanne, jolina, valentina, etc...

but unfortunately.. i can only dream

i want that to happen.

but it wont

most probably, i will chicken out again

i may act so 'confident' now.. but actually, i'm not..

sad ...

depressed*argh i HATE this word**

unloved.

neglected

ignored

underestimated,

unappreciative

unappreciated.

that's me

elisabeth fong rui xian

the biggest loser of all times

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MEMORIES ♥

  • June 2007
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    • THE GIRL ♥

    i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
    29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

    a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

    part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
    , - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
    and the KJE'S
    - KELLER JOANNA ME
    i LOVE GOD and my family

    i hate sin
    i am quite sensitive at times
    BEWARE ;D

    LOVES and WANTS♥

    LOVES
    GOD....
    HCIS 1E '08
    Friends...;
    Dogs!..
    family
    WANTS
    to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
    to forgive and forget
    to control my temper
    to not have ANY fights in high school
    to learn to love and not have any grudges
    to not get my hopes too high
    to meet great friends in sec sch
    to be able to cope with sec life
    to get an IB
    to get a diploma in piano
    to be able to lose weight
    to not be ashamed of myself
    to not care about other people's criticism
    to ignore some people forever
    to not be so tired
    to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
    to make up my mind
    to make life-long friends(:
    to be proud of myself
    god's blessings...<3
    to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
    my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
    my sis to do well in 'O's
    my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
    NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

    TALK! ♥




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