it's just harder to be happy, enthusiastic about everything, crazy, basically myself these days.
idont know what is happening to me
i'm sorry if i flared up
it's just that sometimes,
i have wild dreams,
and i get traumatized*believe me its scary* and i just flare up at every single thing
depression AND traumatizm
it's just horrible but what can i do about it?
i try to stop myself
but so many things are just freakin' rushed
why cant i just sit back and relax the world?
PSLE is coming,
my back aches.
my throat hasn't healed
we're leaving primary school,
my prelim resultsSUCKED AND i'm the total loser of aLL times

i mean
is a BCAA good for prelim?
yeah. NOT
there. i'm flaring up again.
there's little flaring up, sensitive, hot- tempered me again
i think that i'm flaring up at my OWN SELF
i realised that i was an innocent kid when i wasn't contaminated by the things of the world,
and now, i just cannot help it
i used to have no troubles,
i used to work hard.
yet now? no...
i'm a total loser
my best friends are ignoring me
my best friends think i'm a fool
my best friends are turning their backs on a pathetic loser like me
i still think that i'm cool when i'm not
i still think that i'm gonna achieve a place in SCGS
i still think that i'm gonna have a CHANCE to sing anyhow
i still think that i have alot of talent when i have 0 talents
i'm just the suckiest person EVER in this world
see? i'm so sucky that nobody EVER visits my blog
so this is a diary


life sucks ... period.
ignored.sucks.expected.depressed.loser.letsEVERYbodydown.tha'ts me

elisabeth.

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i am..ELISABETHfongRUIxian(: aka !E-lis
29DEC95 is my BIG DAY

a 6arian HWA CHONG(international)-RIAN

part of theCLICK4♥ JEOS♥
, - JOANNA SHUMIN OLLIE ME
and the KJE'S
- KELLER JOANNA ME
i LOVE GOD and my family

i hate sin
i am quite sensitive at times
BEWARE ;D

LOVES
GOD....
HCIS 1E '08
Friends...;
Dogs!..
family
WANTS
to get into OXFORD/PRINCETON
to forgive and forget
to control my temper
to not have ANY fights in high school
to learn to love and not have any grudges
to not get my hopes too high
to meet great friends in sec sch
to be able to cope with sec life
to get an IB
to get a diploma in piano
to be able to lose weight
to not be ashamed of myself
to not care about other people's criticism
to ignore some people forever
to not be so tired
to have a 'perfect'body by 4 years
to make up my mind
to make life-long friends(:
to be proud of myself
god's blessings...<3
to be able to knock sense into some stupid people
my 1stbrother to get safely outta NS
my sis to do well in 'O's
my 2ndbrother to do well in his JC, preparing for 'A's
NEOPRINTS WITH BEST FRIENDs<3

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