Saturday, August 29, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
ok so like. :) exams r almost over.
considering if i should apply to get the heck out of this school.
but like. i'm scared of risks.
i can't believe that the year has gone by so fast.
soon, it'll be my birthday then i'll be in sec 3
they say time flies when you're having fun.
but am i having fun?
anw, went out aft sch with shumin olli and charlotte.
it felt like exams were over but still have science lols.
it was a great outing.!
i so reccommend the following movies:
while you were sleeping
coyote ugly
its a boy girl thing
first daughter
marley and me ( i havnt seen but the trailer is soo funny :) )
the perfect man
the sleepover
just friends
10 things i hate about you
just like heaven
another cinderella story
STEP UP!
picture this
fired up
music n lyrics
clueless
mean girls
a walk to remember
sydney white
what a girl wants
she's the man
the notebook
THE BUCKET LIST!!!!
p.s. it feels so weird, not being able to talk to you. am i just being delusional?
you dont know how everything you say hurts me. maybe i'm oversensitive but i just can't stop myself.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
okay, supposed to be studying now.
Week 1,
nothing much really,
but wed - fri had DVBS,
and Sat had YF retreat, btw, still have bad memories of the game
the only good part was the bonding in the van, but other than that, no.
sorry organizers
then sunday went to church
Week 2
mostly stayed home to study, but on tues(ithink) went out with hcis friends (:
Week 3
Had BIBLE CONFERENCE in the night for the whole week from 7.30-9++++
haha and tues went to ariels house with ollie and stuff
Wed, had baking with vicki, ky, nad at myhouse (:
today, gonna study, tmr, gonna study
Week 4, hopefully going to have a barbeque(:
We'll see what happens.
Monday, May 25, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
WOOHOOTs. so anyway, hvan't posted for long
so
today
english, was kinda stupid, 'cos like we had to write 150 words and canot reuse any word except for prepositions and articles
-.----.
then had recess.
then had assembly
had to 'rate' ourselves
lol i gave myself 7/15
yeah, apparently that's not good-.-
so wadever luhs
then had math ( ms ho didn't come she's taking her masters in math)
then mr ye zhi took over
:D laugh until super fun luhs
'cos mr ye zhi didn't really bother us :P
tyty
SUPER fun.
but like my cheeks were sore
><
;(
no yay me
lols
then had 'music' but ms ho our music teacher too so therefore never come.
then this new teacher came in and ask us to compete in speed stacking.
so wadever luhs.
lols
aerisa and kelvin won
so good for them loh.
then had hist papers back
WOOOO
FULL MARKS FOR ESSAYYY!!!!!=D
93/100:D
never expected it
:'(
-sobs-
haha
congrats kavern, on getting 97 ( esp on ur birthday, really is ur day)
then had english compo bck
got 41/50
very happy
(:
didn't expect my crap to make it through (:
then some very stupid stuff happened that wasn't even my fault but heck.
then walked to busstop
then ppl (yirong, dario, ryan kavern)
too lazy to take bus
take taxi
lols
also too rich luh
then gerald darren and me take bus lohs
wah so funny :D
darren so cuteee
but i can see similarities between them.
;D
they do the same ' whatt?!??' face
XD
haha.
and like super funny
oh, gerald's a sci freak, 'cos his so stupidly smart ( in sci)
so anway
went to plaza
and went to MOTHERCARE( waited outside)
and bought sth for kavern ( HAHAHA )
then i bought sth for yirong ( its FAB.)
but we were shraing our presents luhs
then
we went to buy the chain for kvern's (haAHAHA) present.
then there was this popular sale at the atrium
so we bought a book for kavern( hahhaa ) - colouring book! :D
its super nice luhs
then
gerlad and darren were like obsessing over htis woodcraft thingy.
(my brother has made so many alr :D )
hah
i bet gerald is going to fix everything
xD
but gerald and darren were so sweet luh
darren : Kor, i wan this!
Gerald : oh okay, you can pick the last one, its your choice darren
HAHHA
sth along that line
:D
then came home
and slept from like 5 - 7/8
lols
xD had some funny dream
can't rmb it though=X
STM!
:"(
haha
then practiced piano
then here luhs
thank God for today, considering the low mood i've been the past week.
thank God for giving me wonderful support ( church , kellr etc. )
thank God for my results
thank God <3
Monday, April 13, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
today was like almost the worst day ofmy life larhsss.
:(
started the day waking up at 530
went to school early 'cos sis neeeded to be in early for either SPA [ science practical assessment ] or prefects.
duhno.
;D
then reached school bout 650?
yup
even though sch starts at 8
>< time flies
then had english
erh
uhh
it was quite dry
then had recess.
then had principal's assembly
seriously lah.
i'm getting like super bored during PA.
its like
keep asking us questions
when we just want to know what is next
but wad to do.
then
had
math
lolz.
i find graphs like super fun lah
esp when plotting the graph and drawing the line
;D
IT'S LIKE KINDERGARTEN ALL OVER AGAIN!
;D
then had moosic
haiz
again, DRY
then the play was to start at 2
so
from 110 to 2 celene and i were like doing the props
like the debris[ crushed paper ] , the signs [ foolscap paper], and basically trying to calm everybody who was just freaked about the one line they had to say?-.-
but nvm
everybody's liddat.
but i'm like sort of the person who ask them to do stuff
so anything that went wrong, my fault
but it was one of the rare times where it was actually worthit.
'cos like it was really good play.
;D thanks to positive comments n suggestions from celene, yijing, ollie, russell[sometimes], gerald ;D sometimes michael too
---------------------ISLAND OF THE BEASTS adapted from'lordoftheflies'---------------
self destruction in 10.....9.....8.....7.....6...5.4.3.2.1 BOOM!
;D
hah.
it was great
and like sooper funneh
esp like the part where russell'striped'
well he didn't really
but
at least he had the decency to wear a singlet inside-.-
like
erh
hello, he wanted to strip to his underwear, literallyh.
but we made him strip to his singlet and school shorts
so
it was juts taking of the jacket and tshirt
if not russell wldn't 'do the play.
:)
i mean, willingly
then
they played ' dontcha' aft i said ' ralph started to strip to his underwear'
SUPER FUNNY CAN>
once the music started
he just turned round and started lolz.
lucky it wasn't that short.
HAHa.
it was funny lah
-.-
little joke liddat tch also canot take
aft that he also said sth that really like ' drew the line? ' but shan't say it here ltr kenna scolding-.-
then
kenna scolding lohs
but
don't care
russell was like ' no regrets, it was fun anyway'
;)
so
i also no regrets lohs
in the end also i never kenna[yet].
it was worthit
so sec 2s!
IN THE END, IT WAS ALL WORTHIT 'COS IT ROCKED.and it did
big time.
even though we didn't complete the entire play
it was good
then
aft that
went bacfk to class for IFD[intl friendshipday] practice
i was alr quite pissed then apparently i didn't look pissed enough
so when benny and dario came back from macs [ they weren't at the play ]
he thought i was normal
Then he pissed me off
and then i got super angry
the tension in the entire class was like super high.
i felt like slapping sth
but
nvm
><
i have to learn to dispose of anger
i didn't talk to him aft that
'cos i needed cooling down
at the end of the day
i don't blame him.i blame me
'cos i didn't get myself sth during lunch, so i was hungry
and i shldn't have flared up at them.
so , sorry benny
i'll get over it
;) hope u will too
went home
and decided to get over it
came home at 530
slept until like erh 8
><
-paiseh-
but was really tired.
then practiced piano
.<
really excited[sort of]
i just really find some ppl really erh you know
'cos
they just can't take jokes and they just think everything is so perfect, so steorotype.
seriously
it just annoys me that they treat us like really small kids when its not like as if we're that young
we're teenagers.
you've been where we've been
you've either been an outcast, emo or a popular.
yeah, i think i iknow which one u were.
Friday, April 3, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
3.4.09. time : 815pm
i am super tired.
i can't stand this anymore
i just feel like giving up.
what keeps me going, is the fact that i know that GOD has a plan for me somehow. he protects me in little little ways, and that keeps my faith solid.
its difficult
i'll breakdown.
but someday, i'll be happy.
and when i am, this won't matter.
it gets worse before it gets better.
went to school, had english, supposed to write out storyline and plan for essay.
did it, then started to do step-by-step, the sequence.
then had recess.
super tired alr
like mentally
had recess.
had chinese.
FROM TUESDAY ONWARDS. I WILL LISTEN DURING LESSON.
that, is a promise i make.
aft that went to LT
in the midst of having hist lesson, i was emo.
its like nothing i said was the right answer.
i started to scold myself
like really.
then i got really emo, and that really drained the enrgy from me.
felt like crying.
got teary
but didn't cry.
i realised, that i can't really be who i am anymore.
what i used to be, is kept underneath.
is let loose only at home.
now, i can't even laugh at certain stuff.
i can't make jokes without knowing that i'll be embarrassed.
i can't NOT do what they want 'cos that'll just be social suicide.
i can't do LOTS of stuff.
it not the same.
its either them, or me.
but i think its me.
i'm not PMSing if that's what you're thinking.
its true.
think bout last year.
how was i like.
and compare.
i can never be myself.
that's why i stray way from stufs like that.
'cos i know that nobody really knows what i am like.
'cept my family.
never felt envy like this before.
not hatred, just envy, and wondering why i can't do it.
why i can't be original?
WHY?
WHY?!
science drained me.
and no, mr oon's scolding didn't help either.
call me weird, it actually affects me.
then aft that went to cafe.
then went up to class, to help clean the class and decorate it.
aft decoratng the board, cleaned the walls.
and then went to math class late.
[olympiad,]
then stayed for like 1 h +
then went bk to class.
and arranged tables.
into new seating.
then was late for piano
wenjie dropped meoff at little india mrt.
rushed to piano.
[thanks wenjie]
piano was tiring.
my hand hurt, n my head hurt.
it was playing, not the events that happened previosuly in the day.
and i kept yawning
was super tired.
1 peice, spent HALF an hour on it.
as in during lesson
came home
SUPER TIRED.
showered.
cried.
blogged.
time, 8.32pm
Monday, March 30, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
k this is a sorta emo post.
>><
but i really can't stand it lah.
u want to hate me, just hate me
don't try to come pretend like you're my best friend then start to come and start acting like i'm all wrong and i'm a stupid idiot who's opinions are not worth listening to.
i know i'm bad
but i'm not that bad.
sucks lah.
everything i do
everything i say
you think i'm the same as you?
i don't talk then fall in love ok.
it doesn't work that way
what's wrong
she doesn't even mind.
and u start thinking, oh , just 'cos you fell into ' love' like that. i will too?
NO INTEREST.
GETTIT!?
want me only to go along 'cos u duwan to be alone right
USE ME.
USE ME BUY THIS.
BUY THAT.
DO THIS.
DO THAT.
HOW U THINK I FEEL?
everything i do, i dont get anything from it.
u got help everywhere u go. i don't have any okay.
you do.
and yet you get everything.
breaking down.
i know i wasn't very nice
but
DON'T ACT ALL PISSED
THEN STILL HANG OUT WITH US.
ITS NOT EVEN LIKE MY FAULT CAN.
maybe part.
but
like
u don't need to act like everything is my fault.
then like an hour ltr
like nothing happen.
I DON'T RECOVER SO FAST OKAY.
I'M STILL HURT.
I PUT ON A FAKE SMILE BECAUSE I'M NICE.
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS AND GET INTO DEEP TROUBLE.
i think before i act.
you should too.
------------------------------------------------------
yesterday had yf.
was pianist.
><
piano sounded like it was muted
duno
maybe they cldn't hear my mistakes lohs
><
forum was..
awkward
like ------------- was unsure of how to answer our questions.
then ------------ stare over at me, like as if i owe her living
ofcos idun care lah.
i understand but it wasn't like i wasn't listening right.
i mean if it was my dad, i wld like ppl to listen too
but i was listening loh.
make such a big deal.
it's not like i don't show you any respect.
then aft yf
uncle ethan shoo-ed us off 'cos of some reason he wanted to talk to the english side
WOAH. big embarrassment.
only jiaen my sis and me left.
cos we were the only chi side.
[ ironic ain't it]
then aft that my sis went home
then at church
uncle ethan msg me, say he very sorry 'cos his dismissal was very harsh
then he told me what he talked to the english side about.
i mean u talk like that to them, they also will be insulted
like as if its their responsibility
-.-
its not lah.
like we de zui them
i duwan it to be like that
---------------
then came home and slept for like super long
8pm - 5 in the morn
that's why i wasn't tired when i went to sch with joanna 'cos daddy was sick.
><
then today bad stuffs happened.
not talking to ___ again
since it got such bad response
WHAT EVER.
THINK THAT WAY.
i tried to emphasize my point
but whatever i say, you guys don't listen
so what ever.
i'm not out to hurt anybody.
so don't make me.
Saturday, March 14, 2009'♥
"being a kid doesn't hurt, right? :D"
haha today was fun.
first wokeup at like 730 then ate bkfast, showered, played abit of piano
then set off for RELC Hotel
for ABRSM grd5 theory exam
lols
woah the lobby was like super crowded lahs
then went into the exam hall
lol
i saw
its
grd5 's' paper
lols
then i did my paper
section by section
then after doing each question
i'd check again
then after the section i'll check the entire section
then i did the whole paper
then
i checked each one again,
and i spotted one mistake
xD
then
handed in the paper after 1 h30 min
woah
i tell u, the exam hall was like almost 3/4 empty
lols.
but most of them are like grd 1-4-.-
lols
then i went with mommy to far east
ate a kfc
guess wad! i'm a CHICKY MEMBER-.-
10% discount everytime i go there and pizzahut
xD
haha
then went in
and found this super cute shoe shop
mommy bought 2 shoes
i said i cld orrow from her
but i really like the wedges
super nice
its a nice shade of purple too
maybe i'll wear it to the gala dinner [90th anniversary,hwachong]
lol.s.
then went searching for a dress
didn't really find many nice ones
lols
then saw one super nice nice nice one
lols.
walked round sommore
then went back and bought that super nice dress.XD
then took a drink
then went to kinokuniya
lols
to spend the $70 vouchers i got from prize-giving
xD
then bought kenken book1,2
sudoku gold,
books
books
books
wanted to get jodi picoult handle with care,
but yuh
>,<
cldn't
'cos too ex.
this year, i'll do better
:)
then i can get more voucher
then can buy more books
MWAHAHAHA
ok
then came home
haha
at about 4.30
so i started out at 830
bought 8 hours
PHEW!!
